Monday Syndrome

Others call it as Monday Blues but I rather call it as Monday Syndrome. It only happens to ME and almost every Mondays. I'm now badly infected !

Most Mondays I will have no mood to eat. Then, I will feel hungry and start muching junk food (as in chips or chocolates) or eat very little. For example biscuits or bread only. After that, I will feel giddy and headache.

OK, sure have to blame it at the air-cond in the office. It's so cold that I can feel my brain is froozen.
Thinking Hard --> Brain Froozen --> Headache
Being a stubborn person, I am so lazy to wear a jacket or shawl. Please blame myself.

Then, I can smell my perfume and get very annoyed to the radio or the music from my i-pod touch. The smell penetrated into my froozen brain and it's now contaminated. I can hear noises in my cubicle and then I will switch off the whole machine in frustration. Thank you, at least I have a PEACEFUL moment now.

Well, I think it's still got to do with my specs again. I know this topic is quite bored already but I want to express that I'm really really excited and nervous as I'm getting my vision corrected in 7 days time ! Please bear for another week ya ! Ha !

Not comfortable

When you complete your education, you need to look for a suitable job to earn for a living. When you start working, you will hope that you will be someone in future so you must work really hard and hopes your superior appreciates your achievements.

Then, you will get married to your right man and have your own children. When you get married, you not only marry the man you love but also to the family of the man you love. That means you need to take care of two families instead of one now. I think this is the biggest challenge for me now. I am still not used to it with his family as I only stayed with them for six months. Living with my family for 29 years cannot compare to living with another family for only six months, right ? I tried my best but I can't overcome my stubborness. I don't want to change but I know I have to. How long do I need, to be comfortable in the house I'm supposed to stay now ? Another six months ? Another year ? Or maybe after I have my own children ? I hope things will be better and I will feel more comfortable with my other family. Keeping my fingers cross.

I think I'm not being a good wife at all. Wives normally wait for their husband to come back from work, prepare their water for shower and cook a simple meal for them. I admit I did not do any of these at all. I don't wait for my husband to come back from work as both of us work at two different places. So, we only meet during weekends. I don't prepare water for shower for him as he can get the direct water from the water heater. Actually, I would like to prepare warm water for him to relax his legs but I'm yet to achieve that. Gosh...I'm such a lazy wife.

I'm still not willing to learn to cook as I don't feel comfortable as I live with my in-laws. It's been so long I didn't cook. Am I suppose to cook for my in-laws too ? If I cook and it doesn't taste good, how am I supposed to explain to my in-laws ? If it's only darling around, I think I don't feel so shy lo. If I stayed in the kitchen to cook for my hubby only, I will look very selfish, right ? So many excuses questions in my mind. Shit...I'm such a lousy wife.

How to overcome all these problems ? How to take it easy ? How to be comfortable with everything around you ?

Please someone teach me. Thanks in advance.

Great aunties

mummy's siblings and their spouses on my wedding last year
*choose 4 ladies that looks alike*

My mum is the eldest in her family and she has 3 great sisters and 3 brothers. I used to be very close with 3rd auntie as I used to chit-chat with her when she comes to my house to take care of the three of us (me, Sam and Matt) when daddy and mummy were in Singapore for his treatment. When daddy was diagnosed with liver cancer in the late 90s, mummy used to accompany him to the hospital in Singapore and 3rd auntie is the one who came to our house to take care of us. Normally, she will come over after she finish her work in a pub nearby and I will wait for her to come over. Then, I will stay late and chit-chat with her in the kitchen while she enjoys a can of beer. She was considered as my closest buddy that I can talk to since secondary school. She gives me a lot of advise and shares her problems with me. I was quite young and I can't help much but she was glad I was there to lend her my ears. She is a very patient lady. We will continue our friendship forever.

Recently, I realised that 2nd auntie is quite nice to talk to. I quite enjoy the times when she listens to me and agrees with what I do. So, sometimes I will visit her or she comes to my mum's house during weekends and we will chit-chat nonstop. There were times when I was too excited and I don't give her chance to say a word. I just keep cutting off what she wanted to comment. But I know she does enjoy talking to me. Our most favourite topic now is Facebook. She has an account and is quite active recently. Anyway, she is the best example of a healthy relationship with her husband and she teaches me how to be an understanding wife.

My sister, Sam is a nice lady but she loses her temper as fast as lightning and cools down as fast as lightning too. We agree that she resemblance my 4th auntie. I always call her as a very 'kan cheong' person as she prefers things to be done very fast and doesn't like dragging or delaying. Apart from that, she has her good qualities too. She is a very generous lady that supports my mum when she needs immediate help. She sends my mum to the bank, brings her out for brunch (short form for breakfast and lunch) quite often, brings her for shopping, etc.

Well, I think it's not too late to realise that you have great auntie, right ?

Happy decision

I can't stop smilling since morning as I've got a good news to share. I'm feeling extremely excited when darling agreed that I can do my Lasik at Optimax Eye Specialist Centre. My innitial plan was at the Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Hospital but they already put me on hold for almost two and a half weeks. I remembered the last time I called the hospital, the lady receptionist was not very friendly and professional at all. She asked me to call again as the doesn't know how long it takes for them to repair the equipment. She was in a hurry to hang my call too !

After being depressed and sad for 2 weeks, I discussed with darling as I don't want my eyes to be at risk because I want to save money. I have so many questions in my mind. If I've waited for a month, and they ask me to wait again, what shall I do ? Wasted so much time then. If I'm the first person to use the machine after they repair and it doesn't work properly when I'm in the surgery room, I will be blind issit ? I don't want to be blind la ! Sound so scary right ? I think I shouldn't take the risk lo. Luckily darling agrees with me. I love you so much ! Muacksss...

The price difference are RM 1,970 per eye from the hospital and RM 3,888 per eye from Optimax. I've made a deposit of RM 100 so that I can secure the 3 days promotion of RM 3,688 per eye starting today. I know it's a lot cheaper from the hospital but if my friend Ah Mah did not inform me that it can be done in the hospital, I've already do it at any private centre. Furthermore, the service from the hospital is so lousy. Sorry to say that, but I really mean it. I have no confidence with any hospitals now.

Darling agreed last nite and the first thing I did this morning was to call Optimax ! To my surprise, I can do the Eye Screening Test and Lasik on the same day ! The Eye Screening Test cost RM 120 but since I've made my mind to do lasik on the same day, it will be FOC then ! If I can get a referals's name, she / he will be given RM 100 for each eyes. If the referal can give me the money, I can save another RM 200 ! Haha... I'm so excited and nervous.

My appointment will be on the 26th this month. The doctor will give me 3 days MC, I will take 1 day annual leave and I'm off from work for a week ! I am a happy girl lady auntie now ! I will have the clearest vison in 10 days time. I can throw my specs away in 10 days time. I can stay away from office and difficult colleagues in 10 days time. I am seriously very very happy now ! Wohoo...

Fat or skinny ?

Others see me as a skinny girl lady but I think I'm quite meaty. I don't call myself fat but I think I have some extra meat at some parts of my body. I don't feel comfortable wearing S anymore. It fits me perfectly but I just don't feel comfortable as there is no space for me to breath and move. Hence, wearing M makes me feel that I'm a little oversized. I always wished I could get back to my size when I was in secondary school. I can fit XS back then !

Went to my auntie's house last night. The first thing she commented was I'm too thin. I told her I wanted to lose till 40 kg (as I'm 47kg now) but she gave me a no-no look and said '40kg is too thin la ! Don't lose. You should eat more, Jolene'.

Bump into one of my colleagues in he the office corridor this morning and she said 'Jolene, you are so skinny'. I replied 'That's because I'm wearing black !'. But she replied 'No. That's because you don't eat !'.

Kuang, kuang, kuang...

Well, I think most of my colleagues knows that I prefer to skip breakfast or lunch instead of eating at the cafetaria as the food and price sucks ! Normally. I consume only wholemeal bread (with butter, jam, sausage, tuna, egg or cheese), yogurt or oats for breakfast and lunch. Do you agree that I don't eat my meals properly ? I do go out for lunches with different groups of people in the office but not so often la. The weather outside is so hot. I'm just too lazy to drive.

I'm a lazy person. I don't exercise so I choose to skip meals. Most of the times when I feel a little hungry, I will start taking junk food. How to lose weight so that I have flat tummy (I want to wear S again), smaller arms (I want to wear tube attires without looking as if I'm fat) and thinner thighs (I want to fit into skinny / white jeans) ?

Moodless

Removed my specs. Placed it on the table. Closed my eyes. Placed my palms on my eyes. Lie down on the chair and rest. Within seconds, I realised I fell asleep ! OMG ! I yawned continuously without realising too. Today is such a boring Monday. I can see blue colour everywhere. Yeah. MONDAY BLUES.

I wished I'm lying on my bed with my favourite bolster and covered myself with my warm towel blanket. The sky is crying badly outside. It's 4.15 pm now but it looks like 6.45pm from the office window. Too bad I'm actually in the office waiting to go home but I noticed time passes extremely slow today.

Is it because I did not go out for lunch today ? Am I'm too tired and sleepy ? Or I just don't have the right mood to do my work ? It's the day of the month, I think.

Please wait...

Sometimes, things just don happen according to your plans. When it doesn't happen, you will be very much disappointed and not as excited as before. I was innitially very excited to do my lasik and had some family plannings in line but due to machine problems in the hospital, I have to postpone my plans and bear disappointments for weeks. I seriously don't like the feeling of waiting and I will get moody for nothing. I just want to get rid of my specs ! Why is it so difficult ?

The main issue I have now is budget. I choose to do it at the hospital because it's alot cheaper than the private centres available in town. Once I've made my confirmation after the eye screening, the hospital can't confirm the exact date for me to proceed with the surgery. The receptionist at the lasik department in the hospital said that they need one month to repair the machine. But is it true one month only ? Are they going to ask me to wait another month after waited for one month ? This is my biggest fear but there is no solid answer for me. The only thing I can do now is to WAIT. Waiting is a torturing process and I hate it so much but with no choice, I still need to WAIT. I feel extremely SAD now.

DELETE

Why do people, I mean colleagues don't read emails ? Why ask the same thing again when people already send emails to inform ? Why delete emails without reading ? Why delete when you can keep your emails in Personal Folders ? Why don't want to create Personal Folders when mailbox is full ? Why don't know how to create Personal Folders but don't want to ask ?

Why got these type of people in the working organisation ? Why ? Why ? Why ?

Bad customer service from the hospital

I'm so farking pissed now !!

Did my eye check on the 30th March (Thursday) and the staff at Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Hospital can't give me an exact date when I can proceed with the surgery. I called on Friday morning and she mentioned something about the doctor's schedule so she will call me again in the afternoon. She didn't return my call so I called again on Saturday morning. Then, she mentioned something about the equipment is faulty. It had to be serviced and I should call a week after. I just called like 5 minutes ago and she said the equipment is still not ready. I asked 'When will it be ready ?'. She answered in a hurry 'Don't know. Maybe in ONE month time. You call again la.' WTF ??!! Why cannot answer your patient nicely ? If you need longer time frame, then at least inform your patient first. Explain ! Don't let them wait and ask them to call again ! Isn't it your responsibility to follow up with your patients ?

This incident really makes me continue to think negatively about hospitals. It doesn't matter if you are a non-profit, non-government and charitable hospital. Sometimes, we will get the same bad treatment from a profitable hospital too. Such bad attitude ! They don't attend to their patients professionally. If you don't like your job, then leave the company. Don't just work for the sake of working and give bad impression to your company because of your lousy attitude. Do you know how inconvenient for me to wear glasses ? 3 weeks already and I'm so lost with my specs !

I normally don't lose my patience and anger like this but this is getting too much ! I need a break. A break from wearing glasses and get my eye problem done as soon as possible. I cannot afford waiting as I have other plans in line. For an eye surgery, I need to arrange my work with my collegues, get transportation from my family or friends, adjust my budget, deciding where to rest (PD or BU), my mum gets worried, etc. Very simple, I just need an exact date when I can do my lasik. If it takes a month or a year, just tell me ! Don't ask me to call again and give me the same excuse !

Well, since this is the cheapest place I can get my lasik done, I still have to wait patiently and be patient with that lady from the Lasik Department. Taking a deep breath and I will call again end of this week. If she gives me the same excuse again, I will throw my anger on her, not in the blog anymore. Fingers cross.

Stupid doctor

Visited the compay doctor this afternoon.

Me : Hi doctor...
Doc : *quiet*
Me : Flu and cough...
Doc : Sore throat ?
Me : Yes
Doc : What's the colour of your flem ? Open your mouth.
Me : Transparent. Ahhh...
Doc : *check fever*

waited a while...

Doc : OK, no fever.

doctor writing but didn't explain my condition and what medicine to give me...

Me : Doctor, 1 more thing. I can feel something in my right eyes when I close my eyes.
Doc : *takes torch light and check my eyes* There is a small lump but don't worry. It will disappear when you rub your eyes.
Me : I tried rubbing and used Eye Mo but it's still the same. It doesn't matter right ? It will disappear or not ?
Doc : Yes.
Me : Thank you doctor. *walks out*

Nurse : This is flu medicine for morning, flu medicine for night, some lozenges for your sore throat and eye drop for your eyes. Please clean your hands before using ya.
Me : No cough mixture ?
Nurse : If you want I can help you to request from the doctor.
Me : OK please.
Nurse : *walks in and came back in 30 seconds* Doctor says your eye doesn't need the eye drops. I will change with the cough mixture for you.
Me : *stunned*

So, this is about save cost or he is just a stupid doctor who doesn't like his job at all ?

Sick baby

The medicine that I took since Saturday does not help much. I can't feel the flu on Saturday morning but doctor gave me flu medicine since I have cough. Normally, flu comes together with cough without any reasons. After consuming flu medicine, my flu got worst until today. I felt my head is so heavy, tired and sleepy but I can't afford to take MC since I might go on MC next week for my lasik surgery. Planned to see the company doctor after lunch and hopefully he will give me stronger medicine so that I can sleep well tonight.

Feeling a little hungry, I went to co-op to buy food but no interesting food available. Only junk food, ice-creams and buns. Hence, I moved to the cafetaria to buy sandwich. The sandwich tasted so bad and darn pricey ! RM 3.00 for 2 pieces of cold and dry bread with 1 piece of salad, 2 pieces of cucumber, 2 pieces of tomato and chicken with mayonaise. The chicken tasted more mayonaise than chicken ! Sound so stupid right ? I should have bought a loaf of Gardenia wholemeal bread for RM 3.00 and eat for a week. It is so not worth it and I'm not going buy bread from the cafetaria again. This will be my first and last time, so please hope that I'm not hungry during lunch hour.