Mixed feelings

Work has been very hectic for the past 2 months. Some targets met but it's not up to my expectation. More improvements to come but running out of time. Today is the last day of September. Q4 is around the corner. October is the month where your superiors give your final points on your performance for the whole year and it determines your bonus and increments. How to work more efficiently? How to achive target in a short period of time? How to work in an effieicnt way and get results immediately? What about the relationship with colleagues? Our department used to be very united but I felt the change last week. It is because we need time to be normal again or it will continue to be like this? It is because we have a new teamlead? It is because big boss was not around for 6 weeks? I am actually feeling stress not because of workload only but partly because colleague cum friend has become alien for the past one week. Am feeling so lost and confused at the same time. Recharged for the last 2 days and hope this week will be a better week. Trying my best to work hard, to help the bosses (and myself definately) to complete some of the projects and make sure our house is clean and tidy so that we will be confident when there are visitors. Cheer up Jojo! Q4 will be good to you. Fingers crossed!

Yeah, add oil please!

OMG! Didn't know I have neglected my blog again and it's more than a year! I suddenly thought of my blog yesterday and realized all the pictures were gone. No idea why but I managed to re-upload the pictures again but some I can't retrieve as I do not keep any copy of the pictures in my hard disc.

I hope I will have more time to write as this was one of the way for me to destress when I face difficulties not only at work, but also in life. I do not have the time to compose because I was really busy with my little one since birth. Since I stopped breastfeeding and my little one is a grown up baby now (17 months old), I realized I have more time for myself to continue doing what I used to do before pregnant. Other than writing to release stress, of course I will shop till I drop la. Two days ago I really shopped till pokai but I felt good about it. Lol

Felt so disturbed after the huddle session with new TL. He mentioned a lot of things and I find it quite hard to digest but of course with my character, I did not question him la. Hope everything goes well and we will accept the change slowly. He is here to help us work more efficient and support us so we must do the same too. Help him to help us and we shall work happily as a team. Looking forward to work with him, and also more drinking sessions after work.

Jojo, add oil, add oil ya!

The inconvenience

To what extend can we hate a person ? You might grow up with them, not liking them when you were young and hate them when you grow up. When you were young, you have no right to hate a person, especially when he / she is your close relatives. You only get to choose to dislike and unfriend them but still meet up with them when there are any family reunions. You can't tell your parents you don't like them as you were too young to make such a decision.

Years past and you have been very nice as your parents always tell you the hidden good side of them. Your parents reminded that you must be good to your relatives but unfortunately, being good means giving them oppurtunity to take advantage on you. I don't mean all relatives are bad. People grow up to become a better person. Some people really changed from bad to good. They are more understanding and considerate in some ways.

I don't understand why some of them (I'm seriously refering to some close relatives) can be so inconsiderate at all times especially when they visit PD. Why aren't they punctual everytime (yes, i mean it - EVERYTIME !) when they are coming to PD ? Time difference of 30 to 60 minutes is alright but not half a day right ??!! It's not fun to cancel any plans last minute to wait for the late comers when they only reach in the middle of the night.

When we were kids, daddy and mummy taught us how to behave if we visit other people's house. "Sit down quietly and don't touch a thing ! Ask us if you need anything." Why their parents don't teach them that way ? I still remember one of the siblings took my brother's PS games without his knowledge. It was just pirated CDs that they can afford to buy and the CDs actually belong to my brother's friend ! They just do anything they like in our house - use the internet without asking for permission, eat and drink anything they can find in the kitchen and fridge, keep our house keys without our knowledge, etc.

The only thing that make me turned into an incredible hulk is when they take advantage of mummy ! I hope all these will end soon as I want mummy to live in peace. I want her to do anything she like but not helping others to do what they need. It's quite annoying ! Please leave my mother alone !! Would appreciate if you do not create inconvenience to others for your own convenient !

Such is the life

Received these facts via email from a friend. Found it quite meaningful and interesting. Happy reading ya !

We never get what we want,
We never want what we get,
We never have what we like,
We never like what we have,
And still we live & love,
That's life...

The best kind of people,
Is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,
Never say a word,
And then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know
What we've got until it's gone,
But it's also true that we don't know
What we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back !
Don't expect love in return,
Just wait for it to grow in their heart,
But if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,
An hour to like someone,
And a day to love someone,
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive,
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away,
Go for someone who makes you smile,
Because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright,
Find the one that makes your heart smile !

May you have
Enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human,
And enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes,
If you feel that it hurts you,
It probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people
Don't necessarily have the best of everything,
They just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for
Those who cry,
Those who hurt,
Those who have searched,
And those who have tried,
For only they can appreciate the importantce of people
Who have touched their lives.

When you were born, you were crying,
And everyone around you was smiling,
Live your life so that when you die,
You're the one who is smiling,
And everyone around you is crying.

Life is too short, live to the fullest with no regrets. Do not fear to try. It would be worth it.

Appreciate

Do cherish the people, especially your love ones around you. This is what I've been asking myself to do these few years. Human being does not live very long in this world eventhough their age reaches 100. Time flies as fast as lightning. So, by the time you realise, many years have past and there is no turning back time. When the time comes, people need to leave this world and the memories will be left with the people who are still alive. Eventually, these group of people will leave one day too.

I had lost 6 close relatives since 6 years old. First was my maternal grandfather, my dad's eldest sister (also my god-mother), my dad (10 years already), maternal grandmother (5 years maybe), paternal grandfather (3 and 1/2 years I think) and paternal grandmother (14 days ago).

I have no idea why I have such bad memory. I tend to forget these people year by year. Not sure whether I'm getting older or I just couldn't be bothered to sit down and recall them. Seriously, it's been so long I did not dream of daddy already. Does that mean that he already forgotten about me ? Or is it because I'm a bad daughter once so he doesn't want to forgive me ? Or he knew that I'm married so he no longer worry about me anymore ?

Live is short. So, life to the fullest ! Do appreciate people around you especially the elderly. They can be quite naggy sometimes. Just think positive and don't forget that you will grow as old as them one day. Hence, you will be as naggy as them too. Life is a circle. What goes around, comes around.

When the person next to you screams

Why do people SHOUT when they loses their temper ?
Why do people SHOUT when they are angry ?
Why do people SHOUT when they in fear ?

In my own opinion, SHOUTING or SCREAMING is quite healthy when you need to release your stress. You might want to scream out loud to the sea or scream while covering your face with the pillow to release the feeling of discomfort. You can always call in to One FM Happy Hour, every Monday to Friday, shout out 'Beh Tahan' and win RM 100 from MYEG. Calling in to a radio station to release your stress can win yourself something. Isn't it cool ? Hehe...

Well, why do we SHOUT in anger ?
Why do we SHOUT when the person is just next to you ?
Why do we SHOUT when we are upset ?

My brother reminded me of an article and I would like to share it with everyone here. It's very meaningful and I wished to document it so that everyone can think twice before they start shouting at their love ones.

The article explains like this :

" When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small.

When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.

THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS : When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return ! "

Jojo is back !

I've used to own a blog for more then 2 years but was hacked last year, a month before my wedding. Not too sure who did it but out of fear, I've deleted the whole thing after recovering my gmail password. The hacker deleted all my 200+ posts and changed him/her as 1 of my blog's admin. Since I can't recover my posts and did not do any backups, I'd decided to end it. At the same time, I've deleted my Friendster account too. Changed passwords for my Gmail, Hotmail, Yahoo and Facebook account - set privacy and keeping the minimum details, friend's list and pictures.

Was shocked and sad at that time as I've lost all my food posts, family and daddy's memories, wedding preparations and the records of my life with my current hubby when we were dating since 2007. Looks like I have lots to write but not very sure where to start from. Many of my friends/close relatives suggested me to create a new blog but I was too lazy as fear the same thing will happen again. Other reasons - I was busy with wedding preparations, wedding ceremony, honeymoon, company family day, work and CNY holidays. Hence, this blog was dragged till now. Some said I shoud write after my wedding ceremony in October last year while some said I should start fresh from year 2011. Anyway, it doesn't matter now.

I love blogging as I can write my thoughts (no matter bad or good thoughts) and read all over again during my free times. I also enjoy recording happiness, sharing it with everyone and release sadness rather than keeping it and be emo all the time. Hopefully, I can write more often in future and keep this blog active forever. BAD KARMA TO THE HACKER WHO HACKED MY BLOG LAST YEAR !! IF YOU DO BAD THINGS, BAD WILL EVENTUALLY FOLLOW YOU TOO.

I've retained my previous blog's title as I liked the name 'Jojo In Da House' very much but decided to change the URL link. Happy reading ya !