Fat or skinny ?

Others see me as a skinny girl lady but I think I'm quite meaty. I don't call myself fat but I think I have some extra meat at some parts of my body. I don't feel comfortable wearing S anymore. It fits me perfectly but I just don't feel comfortable as there is no space for me to breath and move. Hence, wearing M makes me feel that I'm a little oversized. I always wished I could get back to my size when I was in secondary school. I can fit XS back then !

Went to my auntie's house last night. The first thing she commented was I'm too thin. I told her I wanted to lose till 40 kg (as I'm 47kg now) but she gave me a no-no look and said '40kg is too thin la ! Don't lose. You should eat more, Jolene'.

Bump into one of my colleagues in he the office corridor this morning and she said 'Jolene, you are so skinny'. I replied 'That's because I'm wearing black !'. But she replied 'No. That's because you don't eat !'.

Kuang, kuang, kuang...

Well, I think most of my colleagues knows that I prefer to skip breakfast or lunch instead of eating at the cafetaria as the food and price sucks ! Normally. I consume only wholemeal bread (with butter, jam, sausage, tuna, egg or cheese), yogurt or oats for breakfast and lunch. Do you agree that I don't eat my meals properly ? I do go out for lunches with different groups of people in the office but not so often la. The weather outside is so hot. I'm just too lazy to drive.

I'm a lazy person. I don't exercise so I choose to skip meals. Most of the times when I feel a little hungry, I will start taking junk food. How to lose weight so that I have flat tummy (I want to wear S again), smaller arms (I want to wear tube attires without looking as if I'm fat) and thinner thighs (I want to fit into skinny / white jeans) ?