Called mummy on Monday but she didn't pick up my calls. Half an hour later, she returned my call and told me that she was at ah mah's (grandma) place. My grandma used to complain pain everywhere when anyone visits her so I thought her stomachache is just any normal complains. Mummy did not inform me the seriousness and I didn't ask. My bad.
Called mummy around the same time the next day and she said ah mah was admitted to the hospital, in ICU - which freaked me out. Mi said she had a heart attack and doctor confirmed that she cannot live any longer. I teared. Pick Matt from work, discussed with him and we went to the hospital to pay our last visit.
I felt so relief that I did visit her in the hospital but was extremely regret for neglecting her for many months already. Normally, I will just walk off when she starts nagging. Sometimes I even shout at her in anger. She nags and talks about money most of the time. I will only be patient with her when I'm in a good mood. These few years, she has been very forgetful and I seldom visit her eventhough she lives few doors away from my mum's house. She is 87 years old.
Upon reaching at the hospital, I greeted her softly and to my surprise, she could recognise my voice ! She called my name ! I was heartbroken that she was with the help of oxygen machine and with needles on her left hand. She held my hand tightly, asked me to eat as if I'm in her house to have dinner with her. She looked weak and helpless. She left us peacefully right after one of the uncles rushed back from KL.
I'm sorry ah mah. I do love you, but I just don't have the patience to talk to you. I always thought that you will live as old as ah kong. I'm wrong. I shouldn't assume. Time flies as fast as lighting. By the time I realise, it was too late for me to do anything. Please rest in peace and I will definately miss you.
Everyone out there, please appreciate and care for your love ones. Don't neglect them and take them for granted. They might just leave us without prior notice and there is no way you can change the cruel fact.
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